evanescentlachrymose

I haven't updated here in a while, and I think I might just leave deviantart all together. 

LONG RANT BELOW

Life has just been really rough for me lately, and I don't have the motivation to do that much of anything. A girl I've been friends with for over 10 years spread a rumor about one of my close friends in my name. The two aren't friends at all, so she obviously did it just to do something mean for no reason. My friendship with my close friend was RUINED, partly because I was angry with her before because of a seriously bitchy thing she was doing. I won't go into detail here about why, because I think one of my watchers knows a person involved and I've been humiliated by these people enough. Because of this drama, I can't go to homecoming because the guy I went with last year asked my friend instead of me. This guy also creates random group chats with me and his friends and after the rumor got out they just started bashing me. 


On top of this, my parents are going through a messy divorce because my father has been having an affair with his employee for months. It's beyond humiliating, and I'm afraid of what the other people at my school will think about the whole thing. There's so much more to that that I probably just shouldn't write here, but my dad kind of sucked ass as a parent way before all of this went down. 

Basically, I think I should take a break from art and DA to try and sort things out so that I have a life when this whole thing is over. So, goodbye I guess. And a note: if you know me irl keep this stuff on the DL

so like I recently tried to join this rp group and someone who didn't even make an app got in over me :/ 

plus the admins like save spots for friends who didn't even make apps themselves 

it's irritating because I was invested in joining this group and tried to be nice to some seriously annoying people who obviously don't leave the house that often and I got rejected 

the lesson here folks is that rp groups are a bitch unless you are friends with an admin bc unless you are god damn van gogh that is the only way you're going to get in

that's just my opinion and tbh re-noctis is a lame group pass it on ^_____^ 

I'M GOING TO THE LANA DEL REY CONCERT WITH MY FRIENDS HELP I'M CRYING

Time 2 get started

_{► Name ➔  Margaret} 
► Are you single ➔ yes
► Are you happy ➔ pretty content
► Are you bored ➔ nah 
► Are you Italian ➔ ye
► Are you German ➔ ye
► Are you Asian ➔ nope
► Are you Irish ➔ ye
► Are your parents still married ➔ yep

TEN FACTS
► Birth Place ➔ Pennsylvania 
► Hair Color ➔ Poop brown
► Eye color ➔ Light blue
► Birthday ➔ September 18th
► Mood ➔ chill
► Gender ➔ Female 
► Lefty or Righty ➔ Righty

► Summer or winter ➔ SUMMER because cute clothes and no school and nice weather and just hanging out

► Morning or afternoon ➔ Afternoon b/c mornings are satan

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
► Are you in love ➔ lol no
► Do you believe in love at first sight ➔ Nope. 
► Who ended your last relationship ➔ Pft there wasn't one to speak of
► Have you ever been hurt ➔ Not too badly but yeah I guess everyone has
► Have you ever broken someone's heart ➔ LOL
► Are you friends with your ex ➔ LOL
► Are you afraid of commitment ➔ I don't think so
► Have you hugged someone within the last week? ➔prolly
► Have you ever had a secret admirer ➔ LOL
► Have you ever broken your own heart? ➔ please I don't have a heart lol

TEN CHOICES
► Love or lust ➔ love 
► Lemonade or iced tea ➔ iced tea duh 
► Cats or Dogs ➔ dogs
► A few best friends or many regular friends ➔ a little of both 
► Television or internet ➔ internet by a mile
► Pepsi or Coke ➔ coke 
► Wild night out or romantic night in ➔ wild night out yo 
► Day or night ➔ night i guess because sleep
► IM or Phone ➔ depends on who i'm talking to i guess

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
► Been caught sneaking out ➔ no
► White water rafted ➔  NO BUT I WOULD LOVE TO
► Finished an entire jawbreaker ➔ please i'm only human
► Prank called a store ➔ yes when I was in 5th grade my friends and I thought it was hilarious 
► Wanted to disappear ➔ when I'm embarassed which is often

TEN PREFERENCES
► Smile or eyes ➔ eyes
► Light or dark hair ➔ not sure
► Fat or skinny ➔ somewhere in the middle
► Shorter or Taller ? ➔ talltalltalltalltall
► Intelligence or Attraction ➔ both
► Jock or Nerd ➔ shrug
► Hook-up or Relationship ➔ depends 
► Funny and poor OR rich and serious ➔ what 

LAST
► Last Phone Call ➔ mi amigo yesterday 
► Last phone call you received ➔ see above
► Last person you hung out with ➔ I went to see my friend's play with my other friends 
► Last thing you ate ➔ chocolate chip cookies
► Last thing you drank ➔ water
► Last site you went to ➔ tumblr
► Last place you were ➔ lacrosse 

RELATIONSHIPS
► Are you in a committed relationship ➔ LOL
► When was your last relationship ➔ in a past life
► Have you ever loved a guy/girl more than anything else in the world? ➔ no 
► Do you still love them ➔ no?
► Do you like someone right now ➔  no, but I'm pretty open to anything rn

FAMILY
► Do you and your family get along  ➔ I don't get along with my mother well, but I'm very close with my brother and I get along with my father. 
► Would you say you have a "messed up life"➔ no i have a pretty nice life tbh
► Have you ever run away from home ➔ no
► Have you ever gotten kicked out ➔ yes 
► If so, how long ➔ a day

So I /finally/ got my computer fixed like a month ago, but I totally forgot about DA like I neglect it like crazy lol. 

I've been hella busy lately, but I'm back now I promise!